Exactly what I need to do now. Well maybe not controversy though, maybe complaining and being lazy would suit my situation better.
I am pretty sure everyone is experiencing this- lack of motivation, having love hate relationship with bed in the morning, Mon-Tue-Wed-Thu-Fri blues etc, be it you are working 9-5 job or a PhD student. I know it's not fair to compare one over the other, but I think it is easier to lose focus and drive while doing PhD.
This month alone I have been going through a lot of dramas (PhD dramas that is)-broken centrifuge, failed western blots and failed trips to the other hospital which is 30 minutes away because 1) the rotor I brought didn't fit the centrifuge 2) they didn't have enough tubes for me to use (sorry if some of you can't understand what I said huhu). But between the failures, I did celebrate the fact that I passed my first year assessment that made me an official PhD candidate. But really, if I can plot my motivasi/prestasi graph, it'll look like ombak. Naik turun naik turun in the matter of days.
I don't know if this is normal, maybe it is. So what I normally do is whenever I feel down, I'd let myself bermalas malasan as in melayan the unmotivated feelings but at the same time promise myself to get back up again afterwards. Walaupun down sebab experiments tak jadi, I have to keep telling myself that every experiment helps me to answer one little question. It may not be the answer I expect, but at least it tells me what not to do next. Kena lah bersabar walau kena repeat the same exact experiments 10 kali pun. Huhu.
OK lah, cukuplah membebel. Enjoy my western blot yang tak berapa nak jadi ni. Next week I'll bounce again, pinky promise :P